Things have been a tad difficult here the last couple of days. We have all been sick except for Cameron and my mom ( thank the Lord) and so the kids behavior has been horrible. My middle daughter Savannah ( who had ALWAYS been my most trying child) has been expecially disrespectful. How do you handle these days? Well I have not been so proud of myself the last week or so. My kids have been a mess, my house is a mess, and my dogs have even went crazy!!!! I feel like pulling the covers over my head and hiding for awhile. I know though that this too shall pass. I am trying to get control of my bad attitude and my harsh words. I can be quite mean , especially with Savannah because I am so frustrated. Yesterday I was on the verge of crying by the time Cameron came home from work (this was his 3rd day back at work after being unemployed since October 17th.) so he was not feeling like hearing all the drama, but he handled it with grace. Something I am lacking in lately. I am trying. Today has been better. I am being blessed by a lady that I don't even know, but she works with my cousin, and she is giving us a brand new bassinet, a swing and a bouncer for our new baby. We are going to pick it up after Cameron gets home from work. I am so happy that she is doing this for us. We will be better off hopefully, by the time the baby arrives, but big ticket items like those are always hard to purchase. With Cameron being self-employed, we have to make every dollar count. That is something that I am going to have to work on. I want to learn how to be more frugal and more content with what I have. I am in desperate need of some maternity shirts and skirts, but thankfully I have a few piecs that I have been able to work with until Cameron can get a couple of decent checks. I have actually lost 2 pounds in the last 2 weeks which is not good my doctor says. But I have been stressed and honestly haven't had much of an appetite. I keep saying that I am going to make a post about my goals for the New Year, but I just haven't done it yet. I have so many things that I HAVE to work on that I dont know if blogspot allows post that long :-) But hopefully when I am fully recovered from this cold and my life gets back in order a little, I can post some things. I am going to go for now, because I want to get a few things done while my nose isn't running. I will write again later!