Monday, July 26, 2010

Bye For Now~

I needed to post on here for the last time for awhile. We are having a major issue with my husbands parents, especially his mother. Please pray that the Lord will do a work in her heart and that His will be done in this situation. We feel that our children are in danger to a degree, so it is in their best intrest that there is no blogging for now. Bye for now friends, and may God bless you all and keep you unitl we speak again!

Blessings~
Maudie

Thursday, July 22, 2010

New Design...


Bear with me as I am trying to get a new background for my blog to kind of freshen up my look :) I haven't been on that much lately but I decided to pop in and make a few changes this morning. Today is my Savannah's 11th birthday. Oh how time flys... So this post is for you Savannah! Happy birthday...


Sunday, July 11, 2010

Sweet Surrender

When I woke up this morning my home was unusually quite. 2 of the children were gone to their grandmothers, and 2 of them was peacefully sleeping and then 1 little baby was happily nursing. I cherish my time in moments like that. Not that I don't love my children or family, but I love my quite time. I use that time to pray and talk to the Lord. I spent a good hour or so praying this morning. I prayed for my family, my husband, my friends and for myself. I am trying to change several areas in my life. It has proven to be a difficult task. I spent alot of time this morning talking to the Lord about what areas that I know still need improvement. And I have actually heard the Holy Spirit speaking to me today in my heart, telling me to "shh... be quite" or "smile", "have a better attitude", "ask him if he needs anything", "be cheerful"; the list goes on. My heart and spiritual ears are open to whatever the Lord wants me to know. I have a wonderful smelling dinner cooking in my crockpot. My kitchen is clean and our laundry is almost done. I did not freak out when our lawnmower would not start even though our grass is ten feet tall in our backyard. I just said a quite prayer to the Lord that He would take care of the situation with the lawnmower and that it wouldn't be anything major. I am trying to see things in a different light. That is why I titled this entry "Sweet Surrender". When we decide that we are going to serve the Lord, where ever we are at or in whatever we are doing, we must surrender. And not just a little bit. We must surrender 110%. That means giving the Lord control of everything in our life and more. I am trying to really praise the Lord, allow Him to do whatever He sees fit for me, and honor the Lord ( and as an added blessing) and make my marriage much sweeter, by honoring my husband. As Proverbs 31 women, we must do whatever it takes to become that lady. The Lord has put us in this position in life to be an example of His love to our husbands, children, and the world around us. But our first duty is to the Lord, then our husbands, our children, then other people. We must take care of our domain: THE HOME. I love my husband, and no he is not perfect, but neither am I! I have many faults that my beloved has graciously looked over for years. I must do the same. By honoring my beloved, and serving him here at home and with our children, and while have a sweet spirit about me while doing these things; I am honoring my Heavenly Father. We must remember that. Only when you realize the complete picture and what the Lord really expects of us, when we surrender to Him and His ways, will our surrender be sweet. Change is always difficult, but when you understand the why and what of the matter, it is much easier. God bless and enjoy the rest of your day!

Blessings~
Maudie

Friday, July 9, 2010

Hi~

Again I will say that I am still here. I have just been taking a break from blogging and I still have a ton on my mind. Our SUV is broke down at the moment, so we are currently in a rental car. Of course it is way too small but that is all we could afford( well we really couldn't but we had to) . So I am going to try to get my home nice and tidy this weekend and then I will begin preparing for BACK TO SCHOOL. So far August 2nd is our tenative date to start back. I was blessed to be able to find 10 ABeka readers that I was needing at the thrift store, in like new condition for $1.25 a piece. I was thrilled. So of course I snatched them right up. Now I only need 2 things to complete my back to school curriculum needs. Those 2 things are the complete speech therapy at home set for James from www.superstarspeech.com and I will be ordering the 3rd grade math curriculum for Taylor from Rod & Staff ( 1-606-522-4348 Mondays 9-5 and Tuesdays to Fridays 8-5 Eastern Standard Time) . If you are looking for Rod & Staff material, you can call the number above and request a catalog. They have tons of great resources. Well I guess I will go for tonight. I am pretty tired and my side is hurting so I hope that some sleep will help me rest up for tomorrows task. God bless.

Blessings~
Maudie

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Checking In....

I haven't posted in several days because I have been trying to get myself in a better place emotionally. I am semi-succeding at this although I am still struggling. When I first started this blog I imagined that my writings would all be inspirational and cheerful, but real life is not always that. So pardon me for being real. I am going to say exactly how I feel and record my inner most thoughts here. The main thing that has been on my mind lately since Justin's death has been my relationship with the Lord, my beloved and my children. Its easy to get so caught up in keeping up with the world. I haven't really done that but my mind still wonders if we are raising our children right. Cameron and me both agree that we want our children raised differently than we were. Not saying that we were not raised good because we were,but still we have different values and aspirations for our children than our parents do/did have. Just an example.... my girls and I are dresses/skirts only. And when I say dresses/skirts, I mean well below the knee. Anyway, my mother in law hates that we are depriving the kids of dressing "popular" and of a good public school education. So earlier today she came and got 2 of the 5 children to take to her house to spend the night. No sooner than the girls were pulling out of the driveway, they were in her backseat changing into the clothes she has them wear.This really bothers me. My husband doesn't really see the big deal since they are really only going to her house, but in my opinion, it is confusing to them. My middle daughter makes it clear that she doesn not want to allow the Lord to control her family size and that IF she ever has children she only wants 1, maybe 2. She also is counting the days until she can be own her own. She has no desire to be a wife or stay at home mother. She wants to be like her Nana. This hurts me. Is my life and my role here so horrible that she really wants no part of it? Have I already missed that chance to make a real difference in her life?She doesn't do her chores, she is constantly in trouble for refusing to do things that we do as a family. Is this because she is 11 ( or will be in 19 days), or is this due to the influence of her Nana, or is it from the horrible attitude that I have at times? I really am at a loss. I pray for her and her heart. I pray that the Lord will open up to her and show her that way that He would have her to go. I think that when I complain, maybe that has rubbed off on her. I think about my marriage. We have not always been a good example of a Godly marriage and a Godly family. I think when we have children, we must realize that everything, even little things are examples and illustrations to our children about life. They base alot of their future decisions on what we do. Especially the things that they have no experience in. I have many more thoughts on this and several other subjects, but since I am done nursing my sweet baby, I am going to go join my beloved under the carport where he is bbq-ing. Blessings and have a safe 4th!

Blessings~
Maudie