Wednesday, August 25, 2010

My Story~ Part 2

So after my tubal ligation I was pretty content for about 2 years. Then I began to realize that maybe I had made a mistake. I had a horrible time every month when it was that time, and I was becoming an emotional wreck. I had a hard time with lots of stuff in my life and so I began researching reversals and how much they cost. I mentioned the prospect to Cameron and at first he said no way. We had all we could handle and in my emotional state at that time, he was right. Finally he agreed that maybe a reversal would be okay just as long as we did it to see if it helped me emotionally. The next step was the finances. After much prayer we decided on Dr. Lisa Rogers in Jackson,Tn. Then we needed to send in my medical records to even see if I was a canidate. And praise the Lord, I was a perfect canidate for the reversal. So we were now on the road to trying to save up the $4500.00 we needed to have the surgery. I found a group online that had letters that Dr. Rogers honored that gave you a $500.00 discount,so I sent that in when I got it. That last year before my reversal was by far the worst year of our marriage. I was crazy to say the least. In November of 2008, a man offered to buy my mothers property where we lived. Mother said yes. So we sold her place, land and our place. Mother decided to give us the money we needed to have the reversal and buy us all a home together as long as we would take care of her. So that answered 2 prayers in one. The first prayer was for us to get out from under the debt of a house payment and the second was the funding for the reversal. Normally it takes a month or two to get a surgery date, but when I called they had one available on fittingly enough, December 31st. Just what I needed to start the New Year with a clean slate. I had said that moving to the house ( which we did Dec.19th) and the reversal was like starting new and that come Jan. 1, 2009, I truly would be a new person. And I was!

Blessings~
Maudie

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

My Story~ Part 1

I promised that when I returned to my blogging fully that it would be well worth the wait. So I am going to start from the beginning and tell you my whole story. My life is going somewhere different and so the Lord is leading me to start over, from the start. So here goes: I have been thinking alot lately about life in general. My husband and I have had our ups and downs all these years ( 12 in December to be exact), but we have managed to keep it together. We have 5 wonderful children now and are excited to see how many more the Lord has in store for us. I think about my attitude when we first married. You couldn't have forced me to believe that my life would be like this. I was so much different. But yet today as I look down at my little Emily sleeping away beside me and hear the hussle and bussle of my older children running about through the house, I can not think of anything that could be better than this. So many of our friends have been married and divorced atleast twice by now. Even though Cameron and I were not living according to the Lord's will most of our marriage, we never seen divorce as an option. And yes, we have had troubles in the past. Bad ones in my opinion. The type of things that most people divorce over. But the only one that has saved us was the Lord. Him and only Him. Praise to the Lord for that. We also have suffered through 2 times in our marriage where we sterilized ourselves in order to not allow any more children. I was so sure after the birth of our second daughter, Savannah, that I did not want more, that I made Cameron an appointment with the doctor and he did go and talk to him, but didn't want to get it done. I was so bitter towards him and especially after Savannah was born, when lo and behold, I found myself pregnant with my 3rd child( another daughter) at the tender age of 19, and with a 16 month old, and a 10 week old. So right before Taylor was born Cameron finally agreed to the vasectomy. Then about 2 years later, I really felt led to have him have it undone. I knew that the Lord was going to give us a son, and so after a bit of peruassion onmy part( more like begging) Cameron had the reversal and 9 months later, I was pregnant with James. Then when I delivered him at 34 weeks gestation, with him having several health problems, I decided that during my 4th c section, I would have a tubal ligation. Big mistake....


Blessings~
Maudie

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Look For More~

I just got back from a great church service that has actually inspired me in the areas I have been praying about. I haven't wrote in my blog since my last post because I have been praying about several things. Mainly the direction that the Lord is leading me in my life. So although I don't have to much time right this minute, I am going to be writing more starting this week. I am quite tired right now and I am fixen to lay down for a few with Tweedle Dee. so check back this week for more..... God bless!

Blessings~
Maudie

Friday, August 13, 2010

In and Out~

I wanted to drop in and say hello! Things have been really busy this last couple of weeks. Things are better on the homefront, but still a little unsetteling. We have started back to school and I am actually excited about that. Baby Emily is growing like a weed and is still just as sweet as she was when she was first born. I am trying to figure out how I could use this blog to be a witness to other women and not just talk about my life on here. I know that the Lord is doing some great things in my life right now and I just honestly feel like He is taking me in a different direction than I have been before. I will be posting more on that later. I feel the need to become even more dedicated to the Lord, my husband, my children and my life trying to be a Proverbs 31 lady. The phrase "dying to self"is stuck in my head. I have so many things swirling around, but so little time to post them right now. I have to go because we are taking Emy to have her pictures made! Yes, my baby tweedle dee as we call her, also is nicknamed Emy. So if I talk about tweedle dee or Emy, you will know Im talking about my precious Emily Jordyn!

Blessings~
Maudie